April 10, 2010

I can not be my past. I can not be my future.

I can only live now.

I will not be the child I was. I cannot be the adult I will become.

I do not have only the faith I had before. I have not attaind the faith I work to in the future.

I have this faith. This life. This now. This time.

“By the Grace of God I am what I am.”

Paul.

“Do not say, “why is it that the former days were better than these?” For it it not of wisdom that you ask this.”

Solomen.

I was having a conversation with my cousin, some things in her life brought us to the topic of conversation. And the advice I was encouraging her with has put my mind on this topic yet again.

The way of dwelling in our pasts. Waiting for “those days, the good times” to come back. They won’t. Reincarnation of our past life, good or bad, will not happen. The way of making desicions in our present, and wondering if we should go back. The honest heart that lies bleeding when we say we are strong.

I blogged January [2009] about “My Bad Habit” [please see blog, http://skycowgirl.wordpress.com/ January archives]… and reading over what I wrote I almost fell to my knees in thanksgiving for the beauty God has created in the space where that bad habit used to dwell.

Our past is there for a reason. It is there to instuct, encourage, admonish, and teach us. It is not there to dwell on and wish for. That was my bad habit. And learning to overcome that, over the past year and a half, through more than I care to commintary on right now, has been one of the largest mile stones in my life to date, I do believe.

God has huge future’s in store for us. And no, I’m not promising you a long life here on earth with happy endings. I’m talking about the Eternal Life He has planned, the REAL LIFE He wants us to live for.

That is the NOW that I can live in, love stronger, work for, understand deeper, reach for, and ultimatly Jesus Christ is the reason we can ATTAIN in our NOW!

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